The Game of Jenga
I tend to be a person who holds how I really feel in. I have come a long way and have grown to feel and lean into the pain more and more. Before, I used to try to hold everything together and then at some point it would ALL come crashing down like a really great game of Jenga. Have you ever played it? No one even breathes while they slowly try to remove a block to make sure the tower is still standing. This describes how I used to operate. Slowly, I would start getting stripped down until it all came crashing down. I want to be honest with you of my struggle and the things I have learned in hopes that someone else needs to hear it and is tired of the game of Jenga in their life!
Let yourself FEEL- I remember it so clearly. The first time I realized I needed to let go of all the things I was bottling up and to shed my tears. I gave myself permission to feel for the first time and to process how I really felt. I know this about myself now. That I can’t hold it all in. I need to slow down and breathe and then lean into the pain rather than avoid it.
You can’t control it- You can’t make things happen faster or control the time frame. Your worries aren’t even worth carrying most of the time. You cannot fix anything that we all usually lose sleep over. Your head can quickly spin around but listen to that whisper telling you, reminding you to breathe and let go… to trust.
It is NECESSARY- This season you are in right here might be hard but I know this one truth, it is necessary. Sometimes we want the good but we are not willing to pay the price to get there. To feel the pain and to put our hands in the dirt. Do not do what I did. I am not saying quit. Keep on keeping on when things get tough and know all things will come together for your good. But also stop and feel what you feel and then breathe and let it go.
Detours make you stronger- Your dreams ARE worth every pain you feel and tear you shed. You would never sign up for the road it takes to reach your dreams if you had the choice.. You would just choose a direct flight…the easier route! The pain free, tear free one. The longer way or the harder way… it may seem like a waste, or that you are getting too dirty along the way but it is the experiences you face in the detour that makes you strong and ready for the journey ahead.
Today, with you, I will choose to slow down, breathe, follow the old dirt road I am on and trust that those “this was worth it” moments will happen! Can you do this with me friend?
You are called to do great things.. and they will happen.. but we all have our journey on the old dirt road. Breathe. Feel the pain and the emotions you feel. Don’t hold it all together. Feel what you feel and then let go of it. Know your dreams are worth getting dirty for. The dirt and the mess won’t hurt you but only make you stronger and more prepared for where you are going.
It will all be worth it. You are made for greatness.
